Curveball

Simply put, this life keeps throwing me unexpected turn of events.

In all honesty, this year I’ve had to face, head-on, some of the hardest life lessons yet. I have processed new emotions I didn’t know I had, and have learned more about myself, my friends, and my family more than ever before.

In the mess of this all, I have noticed myself more and more desperately trying to grab on to something. Anything stable, really. I’ve even tried to force myself to be that stability I’m looking for so bad. But then I realized that this wasn’t a great way to look at life.

Side note: I am so fortunate enough to have found that stability within my loved ones (you all know who you are - don’t worry I didn’t forget you). I am blessed with some of the best people there are. Truly.

However, I’ve realized that i still sometimes try to pressure myself. And if I go about life pressuring myself to find stability in any given situation, I may be disappointed. Life is not stable. Every minute is not given. I talked before about how we don’t have to be happy every second of the day (obviously, I’m still struggling w this one lol). What’s the point in stressing myself out about being my own constant rock, when I don’t have to think like that?

I guess what I’m trying to say is, while there is so much I do not know, and much that I cannot change, I am working on what I can do - and I’m gonna encourage you to do the same.

Whatever you wish to start, do it today. Whoever you want to make up with or reach out to, do it today. Whatever is blocking you from where you want to be, address it now.

We only have so much time with one another. Who knows what curveballs lie ahead. But right now, in this moment, I’m going to thank you for sticking with me through this journey. I love and appreciate you very much. You matter to me, and I hope you always know that. ❤️

-mar