Stop This Train

If you know me, or follow any social media of mine really (lol), you probably know by now that I’m a hUgE John Mayer fan :) Recently, one of his songs called, “Stop This Train” has been hitting quite home for me. In the song, he talks about the bittersweet subject of growing up and getting older. The concept of trying to be open to life’s natural course, while also wishing time could slow down has been one of the biggest struggles I’ve been facing. 

Now don’t get me wrong, the future is so exciting! I’m really happy with the opportunities that are to come and truly cannot wait to see where life goes from here! However, a part of me still wishes she could hold on tight to the past. I enjoyed growing up. I was never really in a rush to be an adult. 

Now, before you say anything hehe, yes. I’m aware I’m only 20. I’m obviously very young! I still have so much to learn and am still getting there - I know. But within the next year or two, there will be many big changes coming. Things will not be as they have been all my life. Yes, this is totally okay, but that doesn’t mean I never get sad about it. 

I try my best to only think of the positives coming versus the positives that have gone or will go, but for me (being the lil sappy bean I am), that’s difficult. And not having all the answers is hard for me, I’ll admit. 

What I do know moving forward is that I will try my best to ride the wave. I will give trusting the universe’s path my all. I will accept the present in the best ways I can.

I saw something online the other day that talked about how life was like a thick rope. I’ll definitely butcher this, but here’s what I got from it: If you try to hold on to the rope while you’re slipping, you’ll only hurt your hands more. If you start to slip and just let go, you’ll cause less damage to your hands.

For me, this means that I must remember to not beat myself up if I’m sad sometimes (I have to constantly remind myself this one haha), because that’ll only make matters worse. I don’t have to hold on to the dumb idea in my mind that I have to be happy and think happy 24/7. I have to let that train of thought go, because it’s impossible!

Instead of trying to ‘stop this train’ of life’s natural timing - maybe I’ll join it!