The Side You Don’t See

Hello again!! It’s been a little while, but I thought I’d take the time tonight to share with you the side of me you usually don’t get to see. If I’m being honest, the past few weeks have been super exciting, but they’ve also been very challenging.

I know I’ve talked about my health issues in previous posts, and I just want to reiterate that I, in no means, want to come off as looking for pity or complaining, since I know there are plenty out there who suffer much worse than I do. And they are stronger than me and always will be.

I just want to keep the theme consistent of trying to be as authentic as I can on this blog - including sharing both the good and bad times.

Recently, I’ve really been having a lovely time at school! I really think this will be a great year :) However, I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t now severely struggling with all my food allergies/intolerances (refer to June 13th’s post for the full rundown). Since the last time I’ve given an update, I’ve sadly found out that my gut health has only declined further.

Now I love being positive and happy. I love encouraging others. But I don’t think it’s healthy to pretend that everyday is complete sunshine (you’ve been there with me through this realization because I’ve written about it before hehe).

However you may know me, you may not know all sides to the equation here.

The side that gets frustrated. The side that tries to mask how anxious she’s feeling. The side being told daily there’s a new food to avoid. The side that sits in the ER for hours passing out from intestinal pain (unfortunately, not a joke). The side that blinks back tears to her mom on the phone, scared of how weak she feels. The side I don’t always want you to see.

The sides that are my reality are the sides I try so hard to ignore. But recently, I’ve found myself opening up way more and letting people in to see the “not-so-hot” sides of me. And it’s been so overwhelmingly positive, I’m so touched just thinking about it!

So my overarching message is this: everyone has multiple layers to them. Including struggles. Especially struggles. If you’re comfortable enough, I encourage you to share your struggles with just one person. That’s it. If you’re not there yet, that’s fine too! There’s no clear-cut fix to all our life struggles.

But I promise you, you’ll never be a burden. You are so valid as you are (all your sides included), and I hope you come to realize that sooner than I did :)❤️:)❤️:)❤️:)❤️